Prepare Me

17 days and counting...
Fellow camp staff keep asking how I feel about Kenya, if I'm ready, what's left to do; I can't tell you what's left. I have no idea. I'm going to be flying halfway across the world, and I've got less than three weeks to get ready, and I'm not doing anything about it. There must be some preparations to be made, right? I've got to be overlooking something.

Then again, I can't prepare for everything.

Lord: prepare me to be a missionary - pure and holy, tried and true.

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Lord prepare me to be a missionary
Pure and holy, tried and true
With thanksgiving I'll be a living
Missionary, Lord, for You...

...because I 'm finaly realizing that I can't prepare myself.

I Surrender All

I (wish I wanted to) surrender all.
I (know I should) surrender all.
I (wish I could) surrender all.
I (know I can't) surrender all.
I (know He did) surrender all.

I (know I must) surrender all.




Terms of Surrender:
ALL. Everything. Give it up. If it's not Mine, whose is it?

All to Jesus, I surrender.

Signed,
Jessica, sinner.

Journal Entry

Jessica: I love you with an everlasting love. I am not distant or angry. I will take great delight in you, and will quiet you with My love, and rejoice over you with singing. I will heal you and love you freely...
Now go: love each other as I have loved you.

[we love because He first love dus. I John 4:19]

Journal Entry

5 weeks (minus 1 day) until August 11. Who's to say I'm ready? I'm not. Oofta. How does one prepare to live like Jesus for 10 months? I'm extremely grateful I have somewhere to go this year. BUT have I been preparing? I have NOT found the will to wake up early for devotions. There's more rain outside (sheesh) than spiritual rain on Jessica. NOT okay for camp.