Monday 8/24/09I'm finally sure I've found the answers to these questions.
I've been questioning myself. A lot. Could I really be a caring SM? Would I have what it takes? Would I be a vocal/visible/obvious witness for Christ? I feel less and less sure. I'm ready to be sure of something.
I'm pretty awful inside. Gooey, tasteless, and a lingering stuck-in-your-teeth nuisance. I might be proud of a vibrant reputation or the perfect shape to fit the task, but it becomes more and more apparent that I need to layer on the Jesus sugar coating daily. I don't want students and faculty to see me or to get a taste of how human I can be; I want them to taste and see Jesus. The longer I wait before dunking myself into the good stuff, the thinner the coating gets and the more likely the disappointing parts are to show through.
I want to make Jesus proud of His gumdrop buttons.
Taste and see that the Lord is good. [Ps. 34:8]
I can't be a good SM. But I know Who can cover up my bad spots and make life sweet.
Get your Jesus on.